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Paulina Porizkova has explained why she posted a tearful photo on Instagram and thanked her fans in the process. In her original tearful photo, she opens up about experiencing feelings of betrayal and heartache. “Shameless or Shameloss?” she begins her post. “Firstly, thank you all so much for the unexpected amount of sympathy. A few of my friends accused me of being a narcissist and posting my emotions on IG for so I could get attention and my ass kissed by sycophants. I had to think about it. Am I here to gather sympathy?” Paulina Porizkova on why she posted tearful photo View this post on Instagram A post shared by Paulina Porizkova (@paulinaporizkov) She continues on to deny opening up on social media for attention. “No. I’m here because I’m trying to exorcise my shame," she says. "I post thoughts and emotions that I’m ashamed of. I am ashamed that I’m am grieving, heartbroken and sad... I am ashamed that I am needy. I am ashamed that I’m aging. I’m ashamed that I can be a judgmental b----." RELATED: Paulina Porizkova Denied From Dating App Because She’s ‘Famous’ She adds, "I’m ashamed I wasn’t the parent I meant to be. I’m ashamed that that those I loved left me. I’m ashamed of my fear that I’m not worth loving. I’m ashamed to not measure up to expectations and disappoint. I’m ashamed to cry. I’m ashamed of all my vulnerabilities.” Insecurities and accepting them View this post on Instagram A post shared by Paulina Porizkova (@paulinaporizkov) Porizkova adds that she wanted to be open and honest about what she considers her "embarrassments" and "insecurities" in an effort to make them less shameful and to help in accepting them. She concludes her post, “There. I shared with you to lose my shame. You’re welcome to do the same!” In her original post that prompted this explanation, she posts an unfiltered photo while she had been crying. “Everyday is not a happy day in the path of recovery,” she writes. “Trust after being betrayed seems as far fetched as being shot into space. Correction. It’s easier to see myself shot into space at this moment. When you’ve been betrayed- promised something, only to have that promise broken without your participation - you were blindsided. You trusted someone you loved, and now all love is suspect.” View this post on Instagram A post shared by Paulina Porizkova (@paulinaporizkov) It's unclear what Porizkova was referring to in her original post, but despite these feelings, she still holds a positive outlook on life and love. “But love is not possible without trust. And a world without love is not worth living. (All kinds of love),” she writes. “So what does one do when you want to stay open, but the wind of betrayal keeps slamming the door? I guess -maybe - walk outside and brave the weather?” RELATED: Paulina Porizkova Is Still Mourning The Loss Of Ric Ocasek Every Day